Soalan dan persoalan

Assalamualaikum...

These rantings I've written many months ago. But, today when reading it again, I feel like, "not that bad to publish it here". Well then, here it goes..

6th of August 2020

Alhamdulillah, our wishes have been granted.  We planned so long ago to move to a new rented house. We pray, we save some money, we went to Europe too and many things happened. But anyway, we're still pray hard to move a new house to have a better home for both of us. Alhamdulillah, Allah grants us at the right moment at this time to a new and improved home. inshaAllah... 

When telling people about us moving out to a new house, the first question popped out from theirs' minds was, "beli rumah ke?". then, here it goes the cons of renting a house instead of buying it. Hmm..how i wish I have all kinds of explanation to them. How I wish... Yeah I know, considering of our age, of how long our marriage too, people would have a thought of us already own a house. Makes me thinking, we had been away from Malaysia for about 3 years, and now we're just living in Malaysia as a married couple for almost 3 years now. So, considering the time factor, we're still behind from the 'normal' people.

This particular question makes me wondering, what would it be the same question if we move out again to a new rented house? I think we'll be living to this question for a very long time. 

If we have a lot of cash money, we would love to buy a house. But. but but.. the all those 'buts' answer all  those questions.

Another story is, me about not having a job. 

"When you're going to work, Fatien?"

"Tak nak kerja ke? Kena la kerja, orang perempuan kena ada income sendiri."

"Fatien buat apa eh kat rumah?"

Sometimes, I've wondered, If I have kids, people will not ask that kinds of question. How i wish, to answer them back, "yup, I am doing nothing just because my husband prefer me doing nothing". Somehow, I'll just replied with a smile and say "yaa..ada la.." Aaargh I just couldn't. 

If you really want to ask me about a job. can you really ask it nicely or simply don't ask. Let me tell you few things.

1) yes i want to work.

2) But I have a very strict preference about the job i am going to work.

 

Then, before I could answer those questions, they will talk about the what-ifs situation. 

-what if your husband....

-what if your marriage....

-what if you...

and so on on, and lastly they concluded that's why you have to have your own job/career instead of 100 percent depended on you husband's income.

Just because, they have brought the conversation to that end, then I would prefer to give a smile and do the nodding. 

okay last one is, kids.

yes kids. kids. kids.

"When you're gonna have a baby?"

"Pernah pergi check tak dengan doctor?"

"Baik pergi check, so that kita tahu apa masalah kita.."

"Tak nak baby ke?"

Yeah yeah... 

If only they know..

Till then, InshaAllah

p/s: saya tahu, saya tahu, bahasa inggeris saya biasa-biasa aje. :P